why can't i let go?

how do i exactly put this

i don't really know

more put me downs from mum and dad

do i need to speak more?

interesting facts:

i curently bombed my entire rm30 credit on my phone

after discovering how fast it is to browse using the internet

went to a warehouse book sale yesterday

it was fab

and messy

they don't exactly organize the books

they just lug it in cardboard boxes

and just stack them on the table

with only the signs

3 for 10

3 for 20

3 for 30

and so on

bought i think 8 books with mum's 20 something

and all just racked up a rm 100

that is a steal

currently missing him alot

is going to sin's hs this thursday to sat

talked with cheah last night for an entire

35 MIN AND 37 SECONDS

HAH

thx god i used my hs phone

agn my credit bill speaks rm 0.00

and top up by 7.8.2013??

they've got to be kidding me

LOVING THIS BOOK

named zig zag

a story abt a low esteemed girl

with ntg to do in the hols

so she resided into a road trip

with her aunt and her snobbish cousins

they are barely out of the driveway when everybody

adi wants to kill each other

bought a mag 'dolly'

let's have a chat

serious sascha: i have got to stop buying that mag!!!!

naive sascha: why?

serious sascha: it costs me RM 18.50!!! FROM AUSTRALIA

naive sascha: but it's nice.......=[

serious sascha: like i care

now back to REALITY!!!

went shopping in mid valley with mum 2day

[sorry lao gong i cannot on9 because i go out]

bought a

a floral dress[rm15]

a denim jeans[rm59.90]

denim shorts[ rm 29.90]

a gold bag [ rm 15] haha so cheap

jacket[rm39.90]

money pouch[ 2 for 12] mum bought one purple i buy one white]

then we ate at madam kwan

eat fried rice

so yummy =p

then go HOMEEEEEE

HAHA DAD SCARED GAIN WEIGHT

then go up exercise haha

stumbled upon a pic of a girl in

my recieved files folder

only to remember that

its a pic that my hubby sent me via msn

last year

asking me if i knew this girl

and he wanted to add her msn

because he thinks that she's cute.......

hz....

does he love me?

i dunno

he's acting different now

what should i do....

i dunno

I'M USELESS

i felt lik cutting myself

but my mum threw away my blades

and i lied to her saying that its for art

more guilt

hz.....

agn

CAN I PRETTY PLS MELT INTO A PUDDLE

I WISH THAT I WASN'T BORN

SWT

THAT'S SO EPIC