god.....i feel so numb

i thought that the pain had left...well....boy was i wrong

i'm not like myself anymore

i felt like this effing outsider the entire day

what? am i some kind of disease?

i felt like crying throughthout the day

and guess how i left it out

the most childish way i have ever done

...haih....

i guess its good now to take a breather...and start writing down ....

1.i'm hurting my bestfriend...i'm losing her

2.i'm this moody bitch..yes she has returned

3.i have a list of bitches...that i feel like slapping

4.my dream has crushed..i've worked so hard for it..and it just got flushed down the toilet...i guess i shouldnt have gotten my hopes up....

i guess that's all....the most depressing..was no.1 and 4