ouch it hurts

U CALL ME A FAKER??? Haha I cannot believe that my own mother can say that to me.

U hear but u don’t listen. U never listen to whatever I want to say to u.

U say that I’m stubborn, u say that I’m a freak (yep she says that to me ) she calls me shit

U know why I don’t wanna listen to u? Because when u call me to do things, u speak to me as if I am ur employed maid.

I AM UR DAUGHTER. I don’t wan to admit that u’re right because once I admit it, u will smile in pleasure. Not the nice kind either. U gave me that wicked grin and say “I told u so(ouch)”

U don’t say

“I’m glad that u’ve changed”

“ I’m sorry I was harsh on u”

Or at least smile? Smile like what a real mother would do!

God why am I crying while typing this out?

I still remember

When I was 6, u wanted me to act like I’m 17

Any kind of mistake I make, any kind was like a disgrace to u guys, my parents

From spiling a drink, falling down, or simply misplacing something

It was like hell. Because any kind of mistake seemed to make u guys hate me more

And the hate has grown.

When I mess up, u guys don’t say “ try not to do it again”

U guys just say” what is ur problem?” or ‘ y u so ma fan wan”

When I was younger if I refuse to listen

U guys threathen me, up until now

WHAT U THINK THAT I FUCKING CARE ABT THE DAMN EUROPE TRIP?!

I’M LEAVING ON MY BESTFRIEND’S BIRTHDAY

I HAVE T O GO TO EUROPE FOR 2 WEEKS SURROUNDED BY YOU

NO PRIVACY

WHY THE HELL WOULD I WAN TO GO THERE

U think that little threat would make me fall?

Mother I am strong, I am not stupid

U’re no parent

U crush ur child’s dream, her creativity, her voice.

U HAV MONEY ,A HUSBAND WHO LOVES U, GREAT HEALTH

WHAT MORE DO U POSSIBLY WANT?

Was I an accident? Because it’ll seem like a whole lot nicer to be borned with a different mother