Feeling rubbish

feeling like such a freak

feeling useless

cause according to you i'm useless right

so hoppy hop here i go..may someone pls donate me a plastic cup..u can see me at 5th avenue gawping infront of a chanel store

anyways i got a new modem...well my first modem right now on the right side of my desk

or so i think it is....damn to think of it that i don't even officially own a modem right now

anyways my mum installed a anti virus program into my computer called 'Malewarebytes something'

turns out some normal anti virus programs cant really detect alot of virus

so guess how many viruses are in my computer?

....1449 objects infected..haha

so many...my dad was like what u download 0o

anyways i picked up a few things from carings yesterday

nivea body lotion ( i love this)
silky girl lash prism
some nail buffer/polish/shaper/smooth thingy
nail polish remover
nail poilis ' berry vampish' so digging this colour

though i couldn't help thinking that it looks like blood..just a lil

and dear is in kuantan now so....hz so missing him

and currently chatting with him too

anyways he also gave me a hickey be4 he left...it faded alil now but i so dont want it to

and so the haircut never happened...hz...its always something...too late..busy...she's not open on sundays.....

and my fringe is growing out...hello.911 H.E.L.P

and also noticing that i'm wasting money on lotsa junk

then agn tomorrow..next week will be the last days of school till 2010

i still cant believe that its gonna be 2010 next year seemed more like the days are closing...the clouds are going darker and the world is gonna fall apart in a blink of an eye

so i m gonna enjoy next week like there's no tomorow...way to keep a healthy mind

then agn talking abt body image

i still remember numerous times including a few minutes ago...me ...brain smashing myself...like

ur thighs are to big. u r nose is to big, ur hair's a rowdy mess

but u know when's the last time that we REALLY said thank you for all the features and personalities that makes it U...maybe 30 min ago...2 days a month?

so girls especially girls get an eyeliner pencil or whatever ..go to ur mirror and write all the boo boos of ur pyshique and then rub it all off with a tissue....feels good doesn't it

then start writing some nice comments u recieved..ur best features...personality

and don't rub it off

just keep it there

and the list will go on and on

ur self esteem might go higher if u just take a good look in the miror
just dont get big headed

hahs..now i really have to go...bye!



say yes to body peace !!!